As I laid in bed and held back tears while hubby was home, I couldn't hide it much longer. I always hate when he asks me "what's wrong?" because I know, I just don't feel like acknowledging it by speaking it. As I laid in bed and wished for the things I didn't have and thought about how I've failed at many things, Cody walked in and consoled me.
On his way out the door, he kicked out my depression, and I laced up my new running shoes that I got for my 29th birthday! I put on my running clothes, got my ear buds and my ipod arm band, and I was DETERMINED to accomplish what I had been fearing for days (Week 5 workout 3, a 20 minute straight run), so much so that I kept repeating week 5, day 2 workout! Eek! Now, to your avg. runner, that is no biggie, but for someone who is not yet a distinguished runner, 20 minutes is a LONG time to run without stopping. I have been attempting C25K since April, yep, since April, but hey, at least I am doing it, even with all of my excuses! I have weeks 6, 7, and 8 left for training and in 8 weeks, I am running my first (but not last) race! Here is my DETERMINED pic BEFORE my accomplishment:
I beat my fear of the 20 minutes today; I beat my depression this morning. In the past, I was in therapy, and because of that, I can now successfully deal with my problems and depression. I know how to tackle it first hand. Now, some days do I want to? NO! Sometimes I want to be useless and cry and eat all day, but it only makes it harder in the long run. It isn't that I am FAKE because I can move past it, it is that I am REAL and that I have a GOD so wonderful, that he loves ME because I FAIL. He loves me because I forgive, he loves me because I am giving, and he loves me because I am overweight. He loves me (period). He loves me so much that he gives me the smile on my face and the strength to keep hitting my foot on the pavement.
Today, I won and I am so very proud of me! Now I know that I can run two miles straight, can I run three? YOU BET. Because in Matt. 17:20 it states, "Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you."
C25K do's
- get fitted for running shoes
- buy running clothes that don't ride up
- listen to music that calms your breathing pattern, the longer you can stay calm, the longer you can run.
- Eat a pre run snack: my favs are a bagel with peanut butter or 1/2 turkey sammie
- run outside as much as possible because that is where you will be running your race, not on a treadmill
- repeat workouts as necessary before moving on to the next C25K challenge
- get a C25K app on your phone- it will tell you when to walk and when to run. It plays in the background so you can listen to music still.
- don't eat junk like I did, it makes it so hard to run in the afternoons!
- don't run in random shoes like I did, because your feet are not secure
- don't skip having water all day and expect to run successfully- I love me some DIET COKE:/
- don't skip workouts or whole weeks at a time without repeating some workouts again
- don't run everyday until you think you can handle it
- don't expect to keep up the pace with your husband, you have shorter legs!
- don't give up.
For the moment all discipline seems painful rather than pleasant, but later it yields the peaceful fruit of righteousness to those who have been trained by it.
-Hebrews 12:11-13
Anna I love reading your blog!!♥♥
ReplyDelete